My path: From Pain to Love

Sometimes the path to yourself begins with a broken heart, with a feeling that something is wrong.

And sometimes — with a deep love for life and the question: “Who am I, really?”

We walk our paths as best as we can — through pain, mistakes, discoveries, and the light behind it all.

Sometimes it takes an effort to see that light, and that’s part of challenge.😍

These memories are my path:

- from fear to trust,

- from control to flow,

- from survival to life in abundance,

-  from pain to love.

This is the path of a woman who has been:

- a lawyer and a dancer,

- a yogi and an interpreter,

- a student and a teacher,

- a cleaner and a guide.

A path where the external world crumbled so the internal one could manifest.

Perhaps somewhere on this path you will recognize yourself. And if I could climb out of my pit, you can climb out of yours too! Or at least you will know where to ask for a hand, right?

Welcome to my world!

But honestly, I’m more interested in yours. Please write me about yourself — your pains, your emotions, your issues! I'm waiting...!

We are Light and Love… and their shadows in human bodies. 💛

Life is a play. 😉 Roles are played, masks are сhanging. I am learning to live while observing — or to observe while living (?) — this most fascinating movie called LIFE. 😍

 I realized: when we accept our shadow side and integrate its parts, life becomes easier and happier. We become whole — not perfect, but complete.

I was born in Kazakhstan during the USSR (1981). My parents named me Olesya after a story in Kuprin’s book. In it, a forest girl named Olesya lives with her grandmother, a healer, and helps people.

This name feels like a reminder: of my roots, of nature, of the mission of my soul. Sometimes I feel that Kuprin’s Olesya looks at me through time and whispers: “Remember who you are.”

My first grade entrance test predicted I’d be a “C” student. Frightened of the atmosphere, I lied that I didn't know what I knew to escape the situation. Shadow work began early. Or family traumas 😉

Dad scolded me for being “stupid.” Thanks, Dad — that pushed me to prove that I'm not stupid, to work hard to match your expectations and later in life pleasing other people (and letting go that program later) and to start reading psychology books very early. Seeds of self-reflection were planted.

I loved children so much, babysitted neighborhood kids, until my younger brother arrived when I was 7. He taught me to navigate conflicts, though I often failed — swallowing emotions, then exploding with anger and then feeling guilty for that. This pattern led to illness. At age 10, I developed viral hepatitis (the liver stores suppressed anger).

 Around the same time, I ordered colorful Children’s Bible books by mail. They touched some parts of me as soul was hidden under the masks and frozen under "social hypnosis".

In 1994, we moved to Salsk in southern Russia. My mother worked tirelessly, my father drowned pain in alcohol. Nostalgia, pain, and pride grew in me, forming the soil for atheism.

At 14, suffocating in the toxic family atmosphere, I was ready for suicide. Instead, I told Mom I couldn’t bear it. She asked Dad to move out. Guilt, anger, shame — but also the first step toward protecting my boundaries. Back then, I took the rescuer role in the family and had a pneumonia. Years later, I returned to my rightful place.

After school, having "A"s on all subjects, I failed law entrance exams (thankfully!). That year gave me rest, time for processing, and freedom. Later, I entered university, worked in advertising, and studied law.

Though I worked as a lawyer for 7 years, my true passions awakened elsewhere: in languages, travel, dance, personal development and spiritual exploration. 

Belly dance revived me, even when I was exhausted from lawyer work. Teaching classes gave me joy. 

Traveling to Crimea  with my dance group and alone to Abkhazia opened new horizons.

Then came Nepal and India after painful divorce — the Himalayas, 

 Ayurveda, Amma’s ashram, mantras, yoga, 

massages. A new life began. I practiced Vipassana,

tantra meditations, regression therapy, workshops with shamans and 

much more.

During my 3d visit to India after I missed my return flight because of 18 hours delay of train, and spending 4 more months there, I met my soulmate — my future husband, 3 days before my departure.

We had to let go our relationship because we had plans in different countries but unexpectedly both our plans had been changed and we reunited in Malaysia in couple months later.💝

Together we traveled in Thailand, Bali, spent another 4 months in India,

then came to Alaska.

 Surrounded by forests, sea, and mountains, I felt at home. 

Soon came pregnancy,

winter in Hawaii, and the "home" water birth of our daughter back in Alaska.

Through motherhood I kept learning  boundaries, self-responsibility, and the balance between service and self-love. I studied massage, art therapy, regression sessions, hypnosis and deepened my healing path.

I realized that pain often comes not from lack of love, but from unprocessed feelings buried in the body. Forgiveness and light meditations are not enough — we must feel and integrate traumatic experiences even if they were "micro" traumas.

Today, I share what I’ve learned: art therapy, healing work.

I am grateful for every teacher and every lesson!

🌸 I AM. I shine. I love. I accept everything and everyone as they are, enjoying my life.

Life is not always easy, but it is whole.

If any part of my story resonated with you… if you feel the echoes of unhealed pain in your own life — in your body, in your relationships, in your heart — please know: you don’t have to carry it alone.

I offer one-to-one healing sessions, a safe and gentle space where we:

✨ explore the roots of your pain with compassion,

✨ release the hidden burdens your body still remembers,

✨ restore love and trust in yourself,

✨ reconnect you with your natural wholeness and light.

Together, we can soften old patterns, heal the wounds of the past, and open a new chapter of life — where your relationships, health, and inner peace are nourished by love.

🌿 This is not about “fixing” you.

This is about guiding you back to yourself — to the place inside where you already are whole, loved, and enough.

💌 If your heart feels the call, let’s walk this part of the journey together.

💌 Contact me: olesyafursova@yahoo.com

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Website Healing Alaskan Lotus

💖 Endless flow of Love, Happiness, Peace, Health to all! 

I am here for you!